my dear friend...

after such a long time, i had lunch with my dear friend and all we did was chat and chat and chat.... we gigled like those teenagers, shared secrets which we would never share with anyone else and of course, gave grandmother advice to each other....

like lil girls, we captured the moments like there is no tomorrow... we were 18 then when we first met, now we are 37... boy, do we feel different? NO!!! do we look different? YES!!! sigh....

my garden

this is what mummy and daddy did while the children were in ipoh...

we took care of our garden, bought pots, plants and hoping to have a nice garden by the time the children comes home... insya Allah.  sungai buloh is a heavan for those who loves gardening. i think gardening takes my mind of everything and it is so soothing on my soul....

my first playground experience

at polo ground in ipoh... this is baby nazhan's first experience at the playground... all by himself...

nanni's hajj journey...

the memories captured here tells a thousand stories...

this is aunty ju's beautiful home where my mother in law departed from... the old lady in this pic is kaseem wapa's daughter whom my grandmother so remember....



 aunty ju's wonderful whachama call it..

 my children so chumel in the exora...

 

with the grandchildren she so love...

 looking so serene....

 uncle idris...

 the family....

 the journey begins.... God bless...

last day of school 2011

the last day of school for nadia nasira and muhammad nashwan nasr was a few days before nanni's haj flight. 

i wanted the children to say bye bye to their friends with some goodies. i took the time to tie the ribbons and went to their school to hand the goddies to the children.  i loved being there watching my children with their friends...

nadia nasira ate her breakfast and ran off to play while nashwan nasr was glued to the chair.  he ate while he observed his friends play. there was this look of excitement on his face i wish i had captured.  it was as if he was with them in spirit. apparently, he was not allowed to run around as he had hurt himself playing with the bigger children a few times.

lil redbean was observing everyone while nadia nasira and the girls crowded around him.  there came the protective brother to be by his side. i could see nadia nasira showing off her brother to her friends.  it was then time to leave and i handed the lil goodies to them.  they were so happy and so was my children....

happy last day of school 2011.  though a little early, mummy is so glad that you both stayed in school a full year and alhamdulillah for everything that you have learnt....



a mother's dilema

i was panicking as to who shall care for my children while my mil goes on her haj pilgrimmage. i looked for a baby sitter but after talking to one, i changed my mind.  i couldn't let a non relative to care for my children.  i was so afraid of babysitters.  i doubt that they will care for my children the way their grandmother did.  well, it was then obvious that next to nanni's, it would be ummamma. the problem is that ummamma lives 200km away from mummy's nest which would mean that mummy have to part with my children. the other problem is that my grandmothers who are almost a century old is being cared for by my mum as well.  to add to the complications, my grandmother is now bed-ridden..

i can't bear the thought... though i know that they will be in good hands and of course, i know that it would do them good to be in the company of their grandmother, great grandmother and aunties and uncles and cousins, yet my heart had already felt so empty with the thought that i will return home without them. 

the day finally came when we had to leave the children at my mum's.  i had mentally prepared them and i was surprised that it was an easy transition.  it was only during bedtime would they cry on the phone if i had called.  however, this separation is a trauma to both my mum and my one year old baby... the tone of his cries are heartbreaking...

i came to a messy house full of reminders of my babies.... i miss them terribly... i know spending time at my mother's would do the children good.  i only pray that everyone is blessed with patience and perseverence during this transition...

the ultimate journey....

i'm counting days to bidding farewell to mother in law who shall be on a journey she so looked forward to in her lifetime.  don't we all? a hajj pilgrimage, a journey performed in fullfilling the last pillar of islam... a spiritual one and the most looked forward one...

while everyone is busy preparing for her journey, i reflected on my journey to the holy land.... i miss being in that spiritual state... i hope that one day, i would find the time to pen down my experience so as to share with my babies their mummy's first experience to the holy land with the hope that they would internalise its significance... the ultimate journey... amin...

impiana morib

mummy is on the move again now that the financial year has started.  the momentum is gearing up.  well, there will be lots of travelling to look forward to this financial year as i am going into my third year in Procurement Division. 

oh well, when mummy travels, mummy will go lock stock and barrel.  this time, we had an additional member tagging along... my sis in law and it was great fun. 

the pool was one of the main attraction...

first experience in the water for lil redbean....

 my handsome boy...

 lil swimmer

in the duckie aunty na got lil redbean...

 the entire pool for themselves....

 ooooo...

 he loves it...

 getting ready with the goggles.....

 dancing and singing in the water....

 my world...

 i forgot to look around and when i realise that i should stop and smell the roses.... i captured these...

 i think this is a beautiful close up by the photographer....

 these too....

 this is their masterpieces when i was at work....

 brotherly love...

 the telephone was his toy...

 this was where we stayed....