conquering fear...

over lunch, niza and i were talking about swimming and the motivation behind our going for swimming lessons.

i recalled why i went for my lessons... since i was a girl, i like to do things that my brothers did. they learnt swimming since it was taught in school. i didn't. i envied my brothers who could swim. one time, when we went to the beach in penang, i wanted to show off and almost got drowned. this was the incident for my fear of waters.

during my uni days, my friends and i went for swimming lessons. what i would usually do was to rest in the water while my friends were busy swimming. i couldn't swim for the fear in me was greater than the desire to swim.

after many years, i enrolled myself for swimming lessons at the same pool with some colleagues. this time i was determined to conquer my fear... oh well, i did it. i learnt swimming. i could swim. alas, i got married soon after and to-date, i have yet to practice.

looking back, i realised that i am phobic over a few things... i had fear of driving, swimming, getting married, etc and i was determined to conquer them all. however, there is one thing i can never conquer.... i am claustrophobic... i need the space both physically and mentally... hahaha now, i understand why i married the man i did.... his nature of work gives me the space....

happy birthday hubs....

here is a warm birthday wish... happy birthday to my dear husband. he turned 35 last monday and it was an occasion to celebrate.... since i got married to him, birthdays have always been celebrated on a larger scale... i stopped by MPH a few days earlier and told nadia nasira to choose a card for her daddy. since she likes bears and her daddy is her big bear, i coaxed her into choosing a card with the bear theme. actually, i wanted to take him to dinner on the putrajaya cruise boat... but their packages were for large groups. however, they did have sight-seeing cruise. for sometime, i didn't know what i was really going to do. i decided that it has to be a family outing and it has to be lunch. so, i announced on monday morning that we were going to have lunch at Saba Restaurant, Cyberjaya, famous for the arab briyani, cruise at the Putrajaya lake, tea at some banana leaf restaurant and dinner afterwards.... sounded like a plan. we had a great time but the plan changed a bit. we didn't make it to the tea and dinner instead i bought him a cake and celebrated at his mums... i loved the cake, both the look and taste... it was supposed to be xmas theme...since i liked the theme and it reminded me so much of farmville, i got that cake and poked a happy birthday sign on it. we came home bout 11pm and i knocked off. hmm... half asleep, i remember a peck on my cheek and a thank you. he is a good man and he deserves the best.... there is nothing i will not do for him although most of the time i feel like ...arrggghhh!!!!!

airport....

my sister in law went to australia to spend the year end holidays and welcome the new year. we sent her to the airport and on the way back, we showed nadia nasira around the airport. her brother was fast asleep.

hubs stopped by a spot near to his office building so that nadia nasira could see the aeroplanes in a close range.... she also got to see a plane which was about to land flying so low just above our car. she sure loved it the experience.

xmas....

nadia nasira was singing jingle bells and also wishing me merry christmas... what do i expect... being working mothers, most of our children grow up with playhouse disney being their companion. though she is at an age that she doesn't understand that it is her christian friends' celebration, i really want her to grow up being able to distinguish it...

despite everything, i like the holiday seasons, the decorations, the mood around christmas and the family values the season entails... though the eid celebration also revolves around the same, christmas yields a little different mood.

here are some pics of the children at the Great Eastern Mall...

haircut...

it has been sometime since we took the children for a haircut. the children looked simply messy all the time. before daddy flew again, he told mummy to take them for a haircut... mummy was quite nervous about it...managing them without daddy because should either one of them start crying, it would be a disaster.

last saturday after lunch, mummy loaded everyone into the car straight to the saloon. mummy thought that the timing should be alright and the children would neither be sleepy nor tired and therefore, they will behave. well, the moment mummy's son walked into the saloon, he started crying. mummy had to let nadia nasira go first so that the little guy gain some confidence... mummy's daughter behaved well and mummy was so proud of her.

it was the little guy's turn and he was very unsure about it. although the saloon was specially designed for children, mummy's boy was still uncomfortable. despite the wriggles and cries, he managed to have a decent haircut. he was all happy afterwards....

mummy really cherished this mother and children outing. though we missed daddy, there are times when mummy really need to have this mother and children moments to strengthen our bonding and enjoy our own world...







mummy took the children to O'Briens for some sandwiches and juice afterwards... nadia nasira had some chicken sandwich while the little guy refused everything but the chips...

the children were so tired. on the way back, nadia nasira fell asleep and did not wake up until the next day but not the little guy... it was a good outing and we will do this again. daddy can join us if he is around.

here are my cheeky little ones....