aim big

my friend, khine pointed out in one of our email chats that in life we must aim big. it was once a passing thought to me but now, with this reminder, i believe in it.

i was once at Dr. Kader Ibrahim's motivational workshop.... i recall him saying that we should not be kedekut in praying to GOD. So, we should ask for as much as we want... there are so much available in His bounties but we should never fail to work towards what we want. Remember to thank Him for what He had allocated for us. . .

the mind has the power of yeilding what we aim for towards us. let's aim big and work towards our dreams.

SPM results

while i was driving to work, i heard on the radio that the SPM results will be out today. immediately, i went down the memory lane to 19 years ago when my best friend called the night before to tell me that the results was going to be announced the next day. she also made plans to go with me to get the results. immediately i started crying and i think i would have done so many solat hajat the whole night.

i was so afraid of not getting good grades. well, i did so well in SRP and i know i didn't work as hard this time around. i have always been getting good grades in all major examinations that my parents had quite a high expectation on me. i was also afraid of disappointing my father (he used to be very strict about our education).

my parents were away...so, i went to get the results with my best friend. i was so thankful that i scored grade 1 with some As. what disappointed me was the few C3s which means had i worked a little harder i would have gotten more As.

my family was very happy with the results and that was all that mattered to me. i got into the university some months later and here i am, reminiscing one of the historical days of my life.

handsome boy

this is my handsome boy, the love of my life.... as i said before, no man has ever made me feel so wanted like my son has. he is 21 months now and approaching his 2nd birthday.

my cheeky monster has stuck a sticker on his nose and posing with his newly found smile for the camera....

he has a look that makes you wanna empathise with him and a smile that would melt your heart. he is very cheeky as well. he loves his mummy and adores his daddy so much. he loves roughhousing with his dad. thank God for that. his sister is his best friend though they get on each other's nerves all the time. he hasn't talked yet but he communicates well with everyone. he bullies his grandmother and the maid. he has a silent bonding with his grandmother and the maid but you can't see it when mummy and daddy is around. he doesn't like the maid being scolded in his presence. he would just hold my hand and pull me away if i ever raise my voice.

he is such an active boy, fights with his sister all the time but would say sorry by kissing and hugging. he loves to snuggle with her first thing in the morning and that lasts only half a minute before he comes to his senses. he wants everything his sister lays her hands on. he loves to sulk by running away to the kitchen or go to a corner and bury his face in his hands while her cries. he loves animals; loves running after birds and cats. he has no sense of fear for any bug or the like. he loves to watch animal planet, thanks to mummy for nurturing the interest. hope he doesn't become malaysia's steve irwin. he loves to make the sound of a tiger roaring ever since we been to the zoo. mummy says, what's that sound? he replies with that sound.

he understands almost all the languages we all speak in the house and would respond accordingly. he loves his books.....would point at the pictures and wants you to repeat again and again what the pictures are. he pretends to cut my finger nails after observing me do it. he knows his basic body parts and when i ask him about his stomach, he would lift his tshirt and then, try and lift my top to reveal my stomach.

he is a toddler but he is barely out of his babyhood. i love this boy like i never have any other.

my little redbean

say hello to my little redbean.... 2.3 cm at 9 weeks..

birthday present

mummy got nadia nasira a pair of swimsuit for her birthday.

we got it a jusco ipoh. my mum thought she should have one with the skirt though i liked the scuba divers type. the one that i liked need to be zipped up in the front and it bothered her throat. so, i settled for the one with the skirt.... and yet again, it was pink. i vowed when i was expecting her that i will not dress her in pink but purples, blue, pink, yellow and etc. well.... more than 50% of the time, she is in pink....

now, i am going to look for a place and send her for swimming lessons since she loves it so much. i must arrange this with my friends. if any of them wanna send theirs as well, then i can spend sometime with them while the children are occupied.

nadia nasira is enjoying the pool in her new swimsuit with her brother....

diaper free

the morning before nadia nasira's 3rd birthday, i gave nadia nasira a bag of half filled unused diapers and told her... you are a big girl now. big girls don't wear diapers. give this bag to ummamma to give it to the garbage collector.

she did exactly that. she proudly said, ummamma, nadia big girl. big girl tak pakai diapers. and the rest is history. although i still keep her unused diapers, i told her ummamma has thrown it away. ever since, she has been diaper free.

even at night!!! i have to diligently wake her up to wee wee and she has been very cooperative, though she hates it if it is the maid who wakes her and carries her to the toilet. she would scream i want my mummy. she had wet the bed at night a few times when i forgot to wake her up on time. it doesn't matter coz she still sleeps in her cot convertible bed and i already have a mattress protector.

my son would never sleep in there even for half an hour coz he never did since he was born. he would scream the moment he hit the edge of the cot. i realise that babies need to get used to sleeping in a confined space. it is a good training for them to later sleep in their own bed which comes without railings.

anyway, it feels great having potty trained my little girl. we will get by the tail end in a breeze, i hope... bravo mummy and nadia nasira....

happy 3rd birthday nadia nasira

my baby girl turned three on 2 march 2010.... i thank the almighty Allah for blessing me with motherhood, the one thing i wanted so much in life.

we were back in my hometown and i was very happy that we celebrated her birthday with her great grandmothers. i got her 2 new dresses and 2 new house wear at jusco, ipoh. we had cake, spagetti and nuggets for dinner, my favourite jelly, canned peaches and ice cream. nadia nasira loved the peaches. she was so full that she claimed having stomach ache.

her daddy and i were deciding on the cakes and the choices were limited. so we got a cake and bought the cake deco and decorate it ourselves. she loves the spongebob and squarepants.

birthday girl....

nadia nasira is having her early dinner, accompanied by her cousin. i take advantage of my nieces and nephew's presense to ensure my children eat.

this is one day these two are so lovey dovey....
my darling son gets a new shirt as well....
cake cutting....

we let her play with the cake....

my pride and joy....

syahama's art work... i think she has beautiful handwriting...

nadia nasira's second cake at her nanni's....

mummy's jelly...

nanni missed her a lot....

she is enjoying the fruits on the cake....

my angel....
my son not out of babyhood....

i hope you are who i think you are....

oh.... i nearly forgot. i want to write about this particular reader of my blog. you see.... i kind of tract my readers and the link on how they arrive at my blog...just for fun.

sometime last month, i was surprised to know that there is one particular reader from Orono, Maine, United States who arrived at my blog from this link http://www.google.com/search?q=Basaria%20%2C%20ipoh&hl=en&sa=2 and spent days reading my entire blog, which means this person actually looked for me (i made this assumption because i don't think there are too many basaria in ipoh). this person could be someone from my past!!!

i am writing this entry hoping that my assumptions are correct and out of curiosity, i really want to know who this person is. so, if you are reading this, hope you could drop me a line. and to all my other readers, i welcome you to drop a line too. it would be nice to get to know you.....

a scare!!!

we came back from PD and that night, i drove back to my hometown for the chinese new year holidays. it was a long break and my grandmother wasn't really well since she had a fall. though i was silently worried about the travelling due to the cyst and spotting, going back to my hometown has always been something i look forward in life.

it was good being back with my family. my brother also came back with his family so the re-union theme also applied to us not being chinese. we got back on tuesday night and i started work on wednesday. i had a slight spotting and by wednesday afternoon, the spotting has become bleeding. i am a person who listen to my body so, the slightest would worry me. i had always been right about it. i knew what i needed which is a shot to stop the bleeding.

i drove to the a&e dsh and i thought i would just get a shot but i was told that my gynae wanted me admitted. she explained to my husband and me after a scan that the baby is fine and i must be treated with much care or i risk a miscarriage. she ordered me a bedrest for the rest of the month and wrote a letter to my employer that i must only be on light duty.

guess what, i got discharged on friday and went back to my hometown for a bedrest but with the older children around, it was impossible. i was thankful that there were my nieces and nephew back in my hometown who spent a lot of time playing with my children. i also stopped being over protective mother and let my mum and the maid to look after the children. whenever my husband was around, it was much easier to entertain these energetic children of mine.

i was so scared and yet, i push to my limits too.

trip to PD....yet again!!!

following the janda baik trip, i had to go to PD for a 2 day workshop. this time, i went there with my family. my husband took care of the children while i went to work. they had lots of fun, enjoyed the pool and the view.

one of the evenings, we took the children for a walk by the sea. apparently nadia nasira didn't like the sound of the waves. i really hope that one day she would find them peaceful to the soul.

trying to be brave having been left alone....

daddy, i don't like that sound...

now, i know how to smile to the camera....

must he the birds he is pointing at....

6 weeks....

the aura of solitude....

sunset....
i love the sight of this huge ship we saw from the hotel....