parenthood

there are so many discipline available in this world for you to specialise in and build up your expertise in order to maneuver life except for one. 

parenthood....an area that you are expected to be a specialist the moment you attain parenthood and if you fail, you will regret forever, feel the pain, suffer a restless soul and end with you leaving nuisance in this world as your legacy. God forbid! 

when it comes to parenthood, time is of essence.  our children grow up too fast that if you procastinate, it will be too late.  the tender years that forms our children's personallity is a very short span of time. all you have is the first seven years to help them form their personality and after that help them to maintain the foundation you have built.  what if errors are made when you lay down the foundation?  you will end up trying to mend here and there a life long.

sometimes, i feel so frustrated when i am unable to manage my issues which is then reflected on my children.  i wish i could be the ideal mother that i wanted to be.  i wish God has given me lots and lots of patience to guide and teach my children the way i wanted to.  i wish i had all the time in the world to hold them with tender loving care, to talk to them, to do art and craft with them, etc, etc.  it brings tears to my eyes that i am unable to do so.  i am always rushed for time, dwelling in the routine.  i wish i can say to hell with everything and focus on my children's growing up years...

i remember a friend telling me... when you realise that you are on the wrong direction , make a U turn as soon as possible otherwise you will be far off the right direction.  i pray for the wisdom dear God,  for i fear of failing.  show me the right path....